I need to be Strong

i don't know what to feel

angry?
sad?
disappointed?

at one point of ur life, someone u love so much may hurt u.
and at that time, u will be heartless.

u won't feel anything. all u can do is cry until there is no more tears.
the act of crying is not because u r sad.
simply because u don't know how to react.

at least after crying so much u will feel tired and fall asleep.
that's the best u hope for.
even though u cant actually sleep.
u act like u r asleep.
but act to whom?
to urself.
to shut ur brain.
and all those little voices.
who kept telling u to feel angry.
to feel sad.
to feel disappointed.

i refuse to feel anything.
because emotions are for the weak.

i refuse to be weak.
i need to be strong.