6/6/2010 = Wedding!

6th June 2010 wedding...tp bukan wedding aku..hehe..wedding bakal abg ipar aku! (confirm2 je~). nervous nye...nk tau knp?

family bf aku ajak family aku dtg..aritu ks kad..hurm 1st time family jumpe family. before ni bf aku jumpe family aku and aku jumpe family die. xpnah plak family jumpe family. igtkn time convo nnt nk ks jumpe kenal2. tgk2 terawal la pulak. tp tarikh yg same abg sedare ku tunang. so mama ckp insyaAllah dtg wedding tu kalao majlis abg sedare tu abes awal. hurm maknanye aku pn x tentu la dtg gak wedding tu. name pn of coz la kena ikot pegi pertunangan abg sedare tu.

rs mcm awkward pn ada. sbb kteorg bknnye da tunang ke ape. cuma yela da together 2 years mestila mak die nk ajak kn. hurm sbenanye bende ni pelik sbb kteorg yg patot kawen dlu!hahaha. tp serious xtau mcm mn nk act on that day. kalao dtg sorg2 bole la tolong2 mak die ke. ye sy mmg xtau malu. mak die xde anak pmpuan so sy xtau malu jd anak pmpuan die. haha.

ni dtg ngan family mestila nk teman family. dtg n blk ngan family. kalao rumah dekat bole la suh family blk dlu. ni jauh~sejam lebeh gakla drive. hurm so dtg. ckp2 jap ngan parents die. then mkn. blk?cmtu ke?aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa bende kecik pn aku leh kusut!i just want everything to be perfect. x slh kn?yela cube bygkn kalao sesiapa ade ters or kecik ati ke. kn x best. :(

harap2 everything goes well. dpt pegi wedding tu. n keadaan x awkward. insyaAllah.

Huh??

yesterday i felt like killing someone.
and i thought who should i ask for help?
the first person that came into my mind.
not my father.
not my mom.
not my brother.

it was Rosmah.
Najib's wife.

@_@!

I need to be Strong

i don't know what to feel

angry?
sad?
disappointed?

at one point of ur life, someone u love so much may hurt u.
and at that time, u will be heartless.

u won't feel anything. all u can do is cry until there is no more tears.
the act of crying is not because u r sad.
simply because u don't know how to react.

at least after crying so much u will feel tired and fall asleep.
that's the best u hope for.
even though u cant actually sleep.
u act like u r asleep.
but act to whom?
to urself.
to shut ur brain.
and all those little voices.
who kept telling u to feel angry.
to feel sad.
to feel disappointed.

i refuse to feel anything.
because emotions are for the weak.

i refuse to be weak.
i need to be strong.

Mungkin Tak Perlu Title

Aku ternampak la ade sorg kwn aku ni like group "Wanita melayu islam jangan pakai legging di tempat awam". I'm not here to talk about agama coz kte sebg Islam clearly knows kte mmg kne tutop aurat. So there is no need to debate about that.

But I am curious what is the point of making such page?I see the point if you make pages mcm "Kami suka perempuan tutop aurat" or maybe "Kami suka perempuan pakai jubah"?. You know pages yg menunjukkan ape yg korg suka. Even someone yg x tutop aurat mcm aku ni pn tgk pages cmni rs sejuk hati. Kira x rs marah ke pape la. A good kind of feeling.

Tp pages yg menunjukkan ape yg korg x suke mcm page yg aku ckp kt atas, membuatkn perempuan2 jenis mcm tu akan jauh dr korg. Seblom ni korg kenal ckp 'Hi' semua (kira ade la peluang maybe nk berdakwah ke kn?). Tp bile die tgk korg like page mcm tu. Bukannye die xkn pakai legging da. Bile die jumpe korg pasni ntah2 die buat bodo je sbb die pk, dh ko x suka aku kn?

What i am trying to convey is, its better for u to say what u like rather than saying what u don't like.

Mcm kalao one day kte nampak kwn kte yg x pnah pkai tudung tibe2 pakai tudung utk g one majlis kn. Its better to say "eee ko nampak cantik pakai tudung" rather than "ha kn bagos pakai tudung. selame ni x pakai ntah pape je. x elok langsong".

Even kalao one day isteri kte msk pn. Tibe2 1 hari die msk x sedap. Baik ckp "Eh sy suka awk msk mcm hari tu. sedap!" dr ckp "Eh ape awk msk ni. X sedap!" The result will be the same. Si isteri kn msk sedap lepas tu tp the way u say it is important. Not to hurt someone or push that someone away.

Ble da tolak org tu jauh2, mcm mn la kn nk berdakwah?jgn pk org tu yg lari, maybe secara x sedar anda yg tolak org tu jauh2?tunjuk sgt yg ko x suke, tu yg org tu menjauhkn diri.

so again, i dont see the point of making a page like that then mengutuk2 org dlm page tu. Its better to join yg kami suke perempuan tutup aurat tu and say nice things about perempuan tutup aurat rather than kutuk2 yg x tutup aurat. You are saying perempuan pakai legging ikotkn sgt budaya barat. Korg main facebook tu bukan budaya barat?Ikotkn sgt budaya FB sampai sanggop buat page kutuk2 org instead of going to the real world and berdakwah kt org2 tu secara baik. Yg laki2 x suka pmpuan ikot budaya barat. Korg pakai jersey ada lambang mcm2 tu ape pulak?

Again, better to say something nice rather than something that might hurt people.

Weaknesses

Everyone has their weaknesses. I have mine too. Not only one but I have a few. But the most important thing to realize what it is and try to learn and fix it. Life is a journey. A journey to grow wiser. I want to be a better person therefore I want to put away my ego and apologize personally to those I hurt no matter how small the matter might be. Lets GO!

buat ape tunggu hari raya br nk mintak maaf kn?mati esok sape tau

Why so boring?

setgh org mmg x bole bwk begurau. tibe2 reply cm ayat yg sgt boring. sume org tros x respon da. sbb spoil kot!

Mengarot la Engkau!

Kebelakangan ni byk post maybe because sleeping time da tunggang langgang. Sekarang tdo lambat and bgn pn lambat la kn. hehe. so mlm2 mmg slalu ters nk bebel2 tp since semua org da tdo, nk bebel kt sape lg kn?

tp nk bebel psal ape? :(

kadang2 rs idop da boring. hari2 pn same. try to setelkn keje2 yg tinggal b4 finals. final finals. :D ha tau da nk bebel psal ape...

Td ade sorg kwn cerita2 psal EDX. aku x g EDX td sbb panas sgt. last2 keluar pn g jumpe sv, co-sv, etc2..so sj la tny die dpt medal x sbb sv aku ada ckp die punye projek bagos. tp tekejut jugak bile die ckp die xdpt medal. die even kate sv aku yg mcm tny2 byk soklan. pastu die ckp course EE ade 2 org je dpt gold medal. Course lain average 8 org cmtu dpt gold. Hurm sbb ape jd cmni eh?sbb mmg projek2 dak EE x bekualiti dh ke atau lecturer EE nye expectation tinggi bona?tp serious la aku tgk projek2 diorg (dak EE) cm agak hebat la.

aku rs bile org ckp projek, org lebeh kagum dgn projek yg setelkn mslh dunia. mcm psal environment ke, sumthing2 la. yg impact die nampak besar la. tp mungkin org xphm EE ni mmg bende yg kte x nampak sgt. walaopn projek tu sekadar study, tp sbenanye it is very helpful in EE punye world la kn. mcm contohnye la kn aku tgh buat projek psal program lift. kalao org yg xde pengetahuan langsong pasal EE mesti 1st time jumpe lift kn kagom. wowww hebat tol org wat motor ni ks lift ni gerak atas gerak bwh. tp kte x nampak the difficult part is to program it. nk program 2 level pn susa tau. ape lg menara klcc tu.

tp kalao org luar x nampak x kesah la. we dont mind if our hard work is not seen by other ppl. tp agak sedeh la kalao lecturer sendiri x appreciate. kami ni degree je pn. and dlm 2 sem tula tekedek2 nk blaja software baru la ape la..kalao korg aja kami dr 1st year lain cite la. ok2 xnk jdkn post ni complain pulak. byk sgt post complain2. sj nk bebel psal isu semase :P

ok nk bebel psal ape lg?hurm best tulis2 blog ni ble kte xyah pk sape kn bc. rsnye xde sape pn suke bc2 blog aku sbb aku jarang update. so org cm x aware ngan blog aku..lgpn blog aku x informative..byk bebel je. should start to write something informative kn?tp mmg xtau nk tulis pasal ape. mmg aku ni bkn jenis org berinformasi. ceh!penah tepk nk tulis psal tempat2 menarik tmpt2 holiday kt msia. tp aku bkn kaki bejalan. adela g tp xdela selalu. pnah pk nk tulis psal food. tp...ntahla again xdela kuat sgt bejalan..pastu kalao jln lupe tgkp gamba.. :(

pastu penah tulis psal review blog2 jual2 baju, tudung sume..cm best jugak la..minat..tp cm da mls da nk g save gamba diorg sume. pastu creditkn. tgk post skrg sume writing semate2. xde gamba pn. ahh biala. nk tgk gamba g FB la!dhla tibe2 rs malas n da ckop pjg.

p/s: bile bf aku nk blk ni..die g celebr8 bday kwn die. aaa i miss u aizuddin alif! <3

Operation Management

Do not laugh if I said this is the subject I fear the most for this semester.
Just did Test 3. Hurm. No words can describe. Won't be surprise if I get 0! ;(

I can't..

sleep because I drank too much of Pepsi.

go out to mamak because he is doing his FYDP.

play FB games because the effing internet is darn slow.

write anything longer than this because engineering has taken away all my writing capabilities!

Look!Im writing in point form! -_-"

Oh Jealousnye~

Tgk gamba kwn2 jln sini sana rs jeles jugak. Byk btol duit diorg. Pk2 blk skoler sama je RM500 sebulan. Hurm ke aku ni yg kedekut lebeh?ada bisnes duit untung x pkai. konon2 nk beli perabot utk rumah..hahaha kn syg kn? :P pdhal rumah kondo 2 bilik je pn..haha

ke parents diorg ks duit?knp parents ku x ks~sob3..ks la jugak dlm 1 sem tu rm300 je ke (tu pn gune utk tol n minyak blk uma). xpela sikap mereka yg x spoil kn aku tula yg membuatkn aku seorg yg rajin mencr duit!rajin kah? @_@

xpela nnt kerja dpt duit g la jln2. time tu lg senang jln2 ngan husbandku. ceh!besusah2 dahulu..besenang2 kemudian!!!aaaa tension xnk study da!nk kerja. nk kawen. nk g umrah. nk cuti2. nk beli perabot. nk bkk kdai. nk buat sume bende except studying!

BOSAN!

I'm complaining AGAIN!

Huhu my last post was last year. I think it's not too late to say Happy New Year!I got the feeling 2010 will be a very challenging year for me but I'm confident all of it will be worth while thinking the things waiting for me on 2011 :P Oh and hoping something exciting to happen end of this year. Hehe InsyaAllah. We can plan but of course everything will be decided by Allah the only God.

Last 2 days, on Wednesday, 3rd February 2010 to be exact was the day for us student sponsored by Petronas to take the ability test. In order to qualified for the interview we need to pass this test. I thought the test would be those thinking skills test. You know where some of it test your IQ and perhaps you have those situation given then you need to choose which are the suitable action to be taken. But NO!they give you passages then a statement, and you need to choose whether the statement is TRUE, FALSE or CANNOT SAY based on the passage given. I was thinking to myself, if someone can't answer this test does that mean they cannot be a good engineer??Ya I know it test the ability of you understanding things correctly but do you really need to give us a difficult passages as if we are here to apply for an English teacher's position? Rasanya la kan, even English teachers are not tested as difficult as this. But luckily I think UTP students are excellent, I bet most of us did very well. I think the problem just not having enough time.

And the second part of the test was mathematics!It was not hard but the fact that we need to catch up to the time was stressful. I failed to answer the last 3 questions. Hehe.
And didn't expect the numbers would be Millions!And again I was thinking, x cukop ke the tests and the exams we have taken throughout the 4 or 5 years here??choose one.. you want to consider our CGPA or the ability test result??

Furthermore, this time all students are allowed to try out for the ability test unlike before only those with CGPA above 3.00 are allowed. I don't mind bout this but I think it would be unfair if later when the result of the test are out, some of the people with CGPA lower than 3.00 get through but those who are above 3.00 didn't. Is the result of a 2 hour test more important and counted than the 5 years tests and exams?

Hurm I don't know. I'm not saying this ability test is not necesary. Just that why do you need to just cut out the names who did not pass?Just take the result for reference. Well people if we get employed by Petronas, can you please recommend me to be head of HR?haha I will make your children's life easy!!!and plus you can marry each other!Boo the policy of spouse can't work together. We are adults!If we think we can't work together we tell you!!Hehe that's all for now. Bye!~

What kind of friend are you?

Helo!As you can see I'm not really a blogger at home. I notice that I blog a lot when I have tons of work!and when I'm free (I mean really really free) I tend to forget that I even have a blog!

For this post, I'm writing about friends!"What kind of friend are you?"
There are many kinds of humans!and so are so called friends. Sometimes you need to stop from whatever it is you are doing and think about your friendship and perhaps just evaluate yourself. Put yourself in your friend(s) shoes and ask yourself..do i like me?

There are friends who are really trustworthy. We tell them our big secrets and they keep them. This is definitely the type of friend we want and want to be!And of course the opposite of this criteria. The friend who has big mouth!Run away from them!

There are also friends who are so competitive with you. They want everything you have!To make things worse, they become an arrogant person towards you. Oh you know the kind of friend who keep reminding you of how rich they are!~Pppfffttt~You may want to run from this kind as well. To evaluate yourself whether you are this kind of friend, try to think have you ever told your friend of how expensive your clothes are?of how your family don't dine in normal restaurant, only in hotels?of you don't buy cheap stuffs?well, you may think its ok but again put yourself in your friend shoes ok?kinda irritating kn?

There are friends who are like chipsmore!haha i think i belong to this group. :P
They will pop up once in a while. especially during holidays!Well we can't help it!We are busy with our student's life!heee do forgive us.

Ok now to be honest I don't really have a list of types of friend. I'm kinda focusing on the second type. About being arrogant. Well try to avoid being this kind of friend. This is not based on my experience. From my friend's actually. I pity her. Because they are actually good friends but this kind of thing can really destroy years of friendship. Sometimes you don't really notice you are doing it. The key is just don't talk about money especially when you have a lot of money. You can talk about you are lack of money but you absolutely do not talk about you have a lot of money and you like to buy expensive things with them!If you are doing it even when you are not yet working, its gonna get worse when you are working!More money more attitude people. Well enough said, I hope this post can really make you stop and think, what kind of friend am i? (although i don't really list them!haha)

Im Bored.

I am seriously bored. And blogging is one of the way to fill up my leisure time. Should be doing slides for my final year project presentation but what the heck. I'm too lazy for that. But not for this!Wuu!

I called my mom yesterday. And I told her that I went for 2 movies after my exam. Then she told me that Nana (my sis) and her friends went to the cinema couple days back. All of them were wearing high heels and big handbags. Nana borrowed mine. My mom said it was my old handbag. I couldn't remember which one. But she said we should really buy her a new one. Pity her having to wear my old handbag. Sorry Nana. :(

So my mom send them to KLCC and before she went to Isetan, she waited. Just to make sure the girls get into the cinema. Oh btw they wanted to watch Jennifer's Body starring Megan Fox. So they managed to get the tickets. But suddenly "Sorry girls, you can't enter. 18sx." or PL. Not sure. Don't you think its kinda stupid?Why the hell you let them buy the tickets in the first place?Haih unfortunately for TGV my mom was there. Haha. Let not tell that part of story. My mom gave away the tickets to a couple. And the girls ended up watching .... erm i couldn't remember. Oh time traveler's wife something. Nana said it was a good movie. She cried in the cinema. Imagine with the high heels and handbags (perhaps some makeup?), then crying like a 12 year old girl.. :P mmg 12 pn kn. heee

So when I got back, Im going to buy you a new handbag Nana. Not Barbie, or Girls, or Powerpuff Girls. A real one aite!Or if I don't really have money that time maybe you can just take mine. Not the old ones. New ones! ^_^

Oh btw, Nana might be entering Islamic International School. At Gombak. Setia Budi?Does anyone has a clue bout this school?Ok ke?Haih manja nye adik aku. -_-

MERDEKA!!

Finished my exam!!!!Wuuuuhuuuuuu!!!!!

Dissapointed -_-

Yes i would be a bad sister not to wish her congratulation for her UPSR result. But i want all my siblings to be tough like me. Just like when i got 6A's for my PMR and nobody wish me congrats. Not even my parents. Thats when I realize I need to get that straight A's for my SPM. I can't let my parents down like that anymore. And I did. To fail once in a while can shake you up and make yourself to be better.

My sister got 3A's for her UPSR. Hurm. Because of our 10 years gap I've treated her like my daughter. Seriously. I would scold her if she did not clean her room or when she stayed up late to play that hobbo internet game or when she kept asking for DSLR if she gets 5A's for UPSR. Hurm well that won't happen. To hear this news really broke my heart just like how its breaking my mom's heart right now. At least my mom got a hint last night. She dreamt about this. I didn't!

My sister had this dream of not wanting to go to Taman Melawati's school like all of us did. I had the chance to go to boarding school but i blew it off (i was too manja at that time). And for once i thought i would convince my mom to send her to Yayasan Saad at Melaka if she gets 5A's. I heard its a good school. Or perhaps TKC. Aaaa sedeh sedeh sedeh!

And there is another sad part. Guess what are the B's subject?English and Science!!English!!!!Pengsan aku dengar!Ok if you think my english is not bad, you should hear my sister's. She is excellent in English. She has this American accent. Thanks to all those Disney's cartoons. English was her best subject. She used to get 98 or at least above 95. So she said theres no need for English tuition. Aaaa seriously sedeh!!

If only we didn't spoil her with handphone, laptop, internet, dance classes, violin classes and all those let's go to KLCC thing!Aish. Yes i know i might be over reacting. Its only UPSR. But i would say UPSR is an important thing for Taman Melawati. Once you get a bad result for UPSR, you would end up at a not so good class at high school. And trust me, at Melawati high school, if you are in the 7th class and lower, that is Class G and so on, it would be tough. You'll have all this gangsters as your friends. The girls..erm..i don't want to start on that. What im trying to say is, your friends. The environment. And the teachers would be more interested in your discipline than your education.

Now I pity my mom. You see, we have this big family. My dad has 2 sides of family. He is adopted by his uncle. (That makes around 15 siblings) And my mom has 7 siblings. Just imagine receiving phone calls from each one of them asking "Mas, Nana macam mn?Ok?5A?". -_-
And to tell them Nana (my sister's name btw) got B for her English..Erm..Nana usually speaks in English with my aunt. So imagine la if we tell them B for English. Hmm..

Nana, I know I am not like other people's sister. I should tell you its ok its only UPSR. But I don't want you to be ordinary like other people's little sis. I want you to be the best that you can be. Trust me education is important. Good results are important. To get in a university is important. To be in a good class in your high school is important. Well thank God mama is a concern type of mom. She will talk to the admin to put you in at least the fifth class. Haih i hope you learn something from this. Im graduating soon. I'll be home more. I'll be your mom. I don't care if you hate me. You will thank me in the future. ;(

p/s: i congratulated her. am not that evil ok!ye ye saya garang but my love ones know me better :) thnx to all yg concern..ke u guys concern bout my sister??kesian eh? :P

Two More To Go!

What a day. Had 2 papers today. Malaysian Studies in the morning and Modern Control Engineering started at noon. Just finished. MS was ok. I did tembak few but considering I did not study for MS, i guess i did pretty well.

And MCE!managed to answer all. BUT!somehow felt like my answers are not right. The working steps are ok but the values... Hurm ntahla. 3 hours definitely wasn't enough. It was cold and i was shaking (as usual). But usually i have time to got to the loo but tadi was hell. 3 hours rasa sekejap sgt. Sambil buat sambil tahan kencing. Isk! Nvm, still i think I did a good job. Congrats Hayfa! :P

And tomorrow morning..Multimedia Network!They really won't let us catch a breath. Who susun the timetable eh?Lu susun x buat course analysis dulu ka? (if there is job analysis why can't there be course analysis??To those who forget. HRM!)

Ok enough of complaining. Let's Study!

Ish!!

This post will be bit tooo personal..
Am having my period pain/stomach cramp today. And tomorrow is my first paper.
Why oh why must it be today or this week!but still i am thankful its today not tomorrow or i'll die in the freaking cold exam hall. ;(

oh pain please go away..i want to do last minute study.. -_-

Like vs. Love

"I like you but i don't love you"

Normal?Possible?yes!!

"I love you but i don't like you"

Now is this possible???

I think it is possible and is happening in many relationships. You found yourself loving someone. But somehow, at times, you found yourself hating him or disliking what he does or how he does things. Why must he be so rude?why must he be so ignorant of your feelings?And the biggest question is "WHY DO I LOVE HIM??"

Conversation might change things. Promises are made. But for how long?Sometimes you need to tell yourself, this is the man i love and he has weaknesses but i need to bear with it. Coz that's who he is. The bad and sad times might be painful but it is worth it if being with that guy you love gives you the happiness that you know you wouldn't find in any other guy. I love you and i know you love me too. But we are human and we have weaknesses. Search the whole world you won't find a perfect match coz it does not exist. So be thankful coz God gives you chance to love and someone who loves you back. Put aside the weaknesses. Close your eyes. Open your heart. See the good things and the sweet things he does for you. And I believe he will do the same thing too.

Perfect Moment

"Do you remember when we were running up the stairs while holding the ice cream and I was so excited to race you that I fell and hurt my foot. You bought me this cute cartoon plaster and put it on for me not forgetting that you even wash the wound before that! It was supposed to be painful but somehow I felt like someone is giving me a bouquet of roses. Not just the ordinary rose but the "PERFECT MOMENT". The rose that last forever but does not smell like other roses do. Just what I need. I don't need a rose with a smell that can only be smelt if I put my face on it. I need a rose that I know will forever bloom. The rose is not you because you do smell good and I don't mind putting my face on you. The rose is our relationship. You give me a relationship that I've never been so sure about. A relationship of two imperfect people but willing to give everything to make it perfect. I love our relationship and most of all I love you."

Happy Birthday Sayang!

Killing Me Softly

Went to send my FYP interim report. And my sv asked me to add some more. And told Kak Hawa (supposed to submit to her for format checking) about it, and she said can submit Monday before 10am. My war isnt over yet :(

But the good thing is i can improve my report. Haih stress2. Br nk happy2 celebr8 ade org tu punya birthday this Saturday (his b'day is on 03/11/09). Since 3rd is a weekday so celebr8 jela this Saturday. Nvm i know i can forget all my work when im with u :)

Hurm and i really havent thought of his birthday present. Kami x main da surprise2 ni. We are too old for that. Ceh!I asked him what he wants, and he kept telling me later la~
Aiyo later i will be broke la. Scholar and personal allowances just came in. Better buy now. Huhu. Currently surfing the net of things that u can buy for your man. I'll do a review on that in a while!